When I first thought about teacher training my initial concern was that I just hadn't practiced yoga very much. So I thought that I wouldn't be a good candidate because I didn't come to yoga classes very often. I definitely did not want to stand out in the teacher training as the only person who didn't know what the different postures were called and how to move my body into them. So I put off the decision.
But I kept thinking about teacher training. I wasn't sure whether or not I wanted to be a yoga teacher, but I knew I wanted the opportunity to become educated about yoga. My knowledge about yoga was as limited as my yoga practice. So while I was uneasy because I was such a novice, it also concerned me that the time commitment was so extreme. Every weekend for two months plus one week night each week, ouch. I worked a full time job and had a 3 year old son who deserved my attention. What would my husband think? Mommy guilt coupled with lack of time forced me to put off my decision again.
But I kept thinking about teacher training. So I decided to meet with the lead teacher and just see what she had to say. I asked her as many questions as I could think of and finally just asked myself, "if I don't do it now, will I ever do it?"
In retrospect, every single one of those concerns was my mind giving me excuses not my heart encouraging me to follow something that peaked my curiosity. There will always a be reason why NOT to do something. It's mustering the courage to actually go for it that is challenging. So I decided to go ahead and do it.
My experience with teacher training evolved from expecting to learn all about yoga to an exploration and discovery of myself. It was an internal revelation into my own spirit that manifested into an external desire to teach yoga. Like anything, you get out of an experience what you put into it. By finally placing my excuses and fears aside, I offered myself an opportunity to grow. That growth has flourished in many different facets of my life. I dismissed my excuses. I overcame a fear. Now I teach. But more importantly, I continue to learn every single day. The training prepares you to teach, but teaching is when your learning begins.